I really try heard to stay positive.
I am thankful that I do.
Because sometimes things around here just, honestly, stink!
It's one of those days, though, where Marc and I both feel defeated.
I am going to be a whiner right now.
If you don't want to read my whining, then you can skip to a happier blog.
I'll give you some time to find one...
OK, then I guess you are curious to hear what I am going to whine about.
IT IS REALLY, REALLY, REALLY HARD TO HAVE 3 CHILDREN WITH SPECIAL NEEDS!!!!
I really want to say I am successful at this.
I want to be able to give other parents in my situation some great advice.
Today I'm just looking forward to tomorrow so I can just get one more day of tough stuff behind me.
I'm getting help for all my kids in one way or another and I still get overwhelmed.
I have ways of helping them at my fingertips through internet, teachers, friends, family and other outside supports and I still fall apart.
I am just finding, with each new struggle, that it's still really, really hard and I feel close to giving up.
I can't even tell you all that we are going through because it is all needing to be private struggles, and maybe that is part of it that is hard for me.
Part of the reason I blog is so that my experiences can help, inspire or direct others who are possibly facing some of the same things.
I even taught The Plan of Salvation today in Young Women and talked all about how it is truly a plan of happiness.
Then I come home and realize how hard being happy can sometimes be.
Does that make sense?
Happiness isn't always an easy thing.
Sometimes happiness is a long, uphill struggle before we see the sunrise of a new and better day.
I guess I just need to vent and let you all know that finding the UP's in my days isn't always easy or fun.
Some times it is awfully tough to see the UP's, sometimes it takes some work, sometimes it's really easy and sometimes, I just don't even want to look at the UP's because I just feel like whining.
That last one is the reason why I am pushing myself to do this challenge of finding an UP in everyday. If I keep whining, that's exactly what I'll do—keep whining.
So in and effort to not let myself fall into the pits of despair... wait, I just thought of something...
(watch this video so you can laugh like I just did in my head when I said "pits of despair")
Oh, that made me laugh... that made me laugh good!
It's amazing what a little "Princess Bride" can do for the downhearted.
Anyway, as I was saying, I am still making an effort to look for the UP's of my day, and there certainly were some:
1) I was able to prepare a lesson for the Young Women in 8 minutes and it actually went pretty well.
2) Marc and I had the opportunity to talk to one of the leaders of our church and were truly blessed and inspired and encouraged by his words.
3) They play I'm in, Pinkalicious, starts tomorrow and it is already almost sold out!
4) The amazing friends and neighbors we are surrounded by who have become our family who are there for us and our kids!
5) I laughed out loud when I found the clip that reminded me of one of my favorite movie lines ever, and it cheered me up enough to find five UP's in my day when I thought I only had one!